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| So, I feel like xanga is an outlet for my depression. And concert updates, of course. But, if you hadn't noticed, I haven't updated in a few months. Cause I'm just sick and tired of being sad. So, like I said last time, life is made of choices. I'm gonna choose to be happy. I may only have one close friend, but she's all I need, cause she's the best best friend anyone could ask for. I'm sick of surrounding myself with people that are bad for me. Maybe I wasn't wrong in making those desicions I did in the past, cause they lead me to a good friend who helped me out when I needed her the most.
I made it through this winter, though. I guess that's something.
The Fray kicked ass, by the way. Missed them 3 times, but we finally saw them, and I wouldn't have traded it for the world.
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| I hate choices. They are an indecisive person's nightmare... i.e. me. Life is made up of choices. Just a few wrong ones can really screw you up. And some people, no matter what they do, always feel like they're doing their making the wrong ones. You have to do your best under the circumstances, but what if your best isn't what's best? Personally, I just feel like I'm always wrong. From lines in a song to directions to figuring out who that actress really is to ...life. Call me paranoid, but 9 times out of 10, I usually am. So that makes me question my own life, the choices I've made towards other people, that I don't talk about. What if turning that person away because I though it was best for me was wrong? Or what if getting mad at an old friend for "abandoning" me was really my fault in the first place? And what if me hating "that guy" for being a horrible person and leading me on, just like he's lead on a thousand other girls, was really me being pretentious? I'm human, I know that. But I feel like there's a thousand places in my life I've gone wrong. Is it up to me to make them right now, or are some things just too broken to be fixed? My best friend always tells me I'm being hard on myself. Even with her, I screw up. There's so many things I wish I had done, or said, or hadn't done or said. But I don't know how to make it up to her either. I need a serious character change, and if anyone could tell me how/where to do that..... it'd be greatly appreciated.
So, in the words of Mle Haymes... this entry is not supposed to make any sense.
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| Babysat for Gadea's tonight. Oh man, was it a loong night.
2 days down, 2 to go.
2 years down... 2 to go.
Welcome to June, everybody.
P.S... Thanks to The O.C. (great show, btw) I've discovered Death Cab... anyone who hasn't, do so immediately.
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| Xanga's are becoming ancient history.
Taking Back Sunday was amazing. Mosh pits sucks, but the House Of Blues was cool. And Atlantic City holds special memories for me.
But The Early November was better. Of course. All the way in the front, off to the left, right in front of Joe and Ace. Most amazing concert of life. So of course, the fact that their an amazing band, not well know, unbelieveable live... means they have to break up. Why do all good things have to come to an end?
Next stop on my concert tour....
The Fray, Ok Go, Mae
@ Tweeter 6/24
John Mayer & Ben Folds
@ Tweeter 7/20
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